Saddened by a forwarded email

It happened again. I opened a forwarded email and regretted opening it. It's about how this child was treated horribly under the shariah law.
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My point is this...what can I do about it? If I forward it to all my friends, what will it do to them? Can they do something about it? or do they just sit helplessly and just feel horrible, try and forget it and move on with life. Not saying this to judge or criticise anyone because I think many times we forward emails out of good intentions. But really...the next time you want to forward something...think about it. Will it help the other person? can sending this to the other person really make a difference in this world? If so, please do so! Otherwise, refrain. Cut the chain!
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Even those chain emails..that says send it and good things will happen to you. Don't and bad things will happen to you. When you send to others, you're thinking about yourself but will you instil fear in other people? Put them under bondage and they must then pass on this email out of fear? You know what? I never forward those emails and I'm still well and alive! Think my friends..think!
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By the way, I sent that disturbing email to Avaaz. org and not to everyone else because Avaaz may be able to do something about it, but not the others. So forward emails to the right ppl...not helpless ppl who can't do anything.
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Forward emails lovingly and wisely.
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I'm so sad :(

Though None Go With Me

I was taking care of Matt late last night and there was nothing else on TV really..so I put on the Hallmark Channel..haha

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It was just the beginning of this show 'Though none go with me'. It is just the kind of show that I like, Tim will probably find it too boring.

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It's about this girl who made a commitment to God to follow His plan. Along the way, she faced so many obstacles, losing those she loved etc etc. When she lost her son in an accident, she came before God and admitted that her faith was wavering.

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It's so easy for us who are watching to judge her. I was thinking in my heart 'Come on lah...don't doubt God. He is still sovereign' (I had many other judgemental thoughts throughout the show as she questioned God)

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Two hours later, I was trying to put Matt to sleep. He refused! and he protested VERY loudly! After 5 minutes of his protest, MY faith began to waver..'God! How come your never answer me prayers? How come you let tragedy happen to me? etc etc' ahahaha ..so ironic eh? (In case you didn't know, the sound of a baby crying can drive one nuts! Ok...fine..that's not a good excuse) Can't really remember what happened afterwards, Tim took over and I feel asleep.

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This morning as I was having my time with God, He began to speak to me about what happened last night. Hahaha..I had to laugh about it. (I was also repentant of course) It's so easy for us to judge others when their sons die and they lose faith but when we are the ones in the middle of the storm (like when a baby is crying LOUDLY), it's so justifiable for us to question God.

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"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?How can you say to your brother, 'Let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye. (Matt 7:3-5)

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So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. For in just a very little while, "He who is coming will come and will not delay. But my righteous one will live by faith. And if he shrinks back, I will not be pleased with him. But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved. (Heb 10:35-39)

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So help me God.

Growing out of one's faith....

I gave my life to Jesus when I was 17. I loved it! I was very proud to be a youth too. I used to not really enjoy talking to the grown-ups because they were always so lacking in faith I thought. I used to believe everything the Bible said. If God said it could be done, then it could! If God sends you out, He would provide for you, if God says He will heal, He will etc, If God says we should tell the truth in love, that's what we should do...but the grown-ups were constantly telling us to be 'practical' and 'wise' and blah blah blah...

10 years later..

last Sunday, Ps Tim was talking about our 'belief system'. It was such a good sermon. really helped me and many others to udnerstand what it really means to do things 'by faith'.

So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. For in just a very little while, "He who is coming will come and will not delay. But my righteous one will live by faith. And if he shrinks back, I will not be pleased with him."But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved. (Heb 10:35-39)

At one point, this question was raised.. Over time, does your faith grow or does it remain stagnant? or worse..does it shrink? I began thinking... and 'Oh my goodness, I've become one of those grown-ups!' Some parts of my faith have shrunk! I used to have so much faith in all these areas..what has happened to me? I've become so 'practical' and 'wise'..God's grace is sufficient for all areas of our lives except...

Now I'm asking God for Botox for my faith! I don't want it to shrink anymore. I have asked God to reverse it. I'm now on a journey of soaking myself in God's Word and believing it with a childlike faith. If God says it...then that settles it. I need no further proof!

That is why I am suffering as I am. Yet I am not ashamed, because I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him for that day. (2 Tim 1:12)

Ps Tim said one more thing. If you have faith, if you are convinced, if you are persuaded, then you need no proof!

I don't know what you'll make of reading this post. but I hope you will also give your faith a check-up. Do you believe God for more today than you did before? Otherwise, maybe you too could use some Botox! Ask God :)

Stillness in the storm

Lately I've been surrounded by , children of God, people of faith who are facing storms in their lives. And I have nothing but respect for them. I put myself in their shoes and I think I would surely stumble and fall. But their strength, their faith, their faithfulness and their joy in the midst of the storm-truly inspiring.

What they show me is stillness in the midst of a storm just as God says to them "Be still, and know that I am God.."...Wow!!

All I can do is to stand with them.....and I am

Revival is hard work!

I want to apologize to all the people whose ears I've set on fire with my complaints about my work load. I am truly sorry. and I am so sorry my Heavenly Father for my complaints. I've sinned.

Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life—in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing. (Phil2:14-16)

Someone wise once said...think carefully if you are praying for revival. Revival is hard work. We've been experiencing God opening door after door in our ministry (Alpha), it's so exciting. Then I turn around and complain about the work load..How does that work??? When God opens doors, work will need to be done. Duhh....

Therefore I ask for forgiveness from God and from you if I've stumbled you with my complaints. If I start complaining to you again...please...if you love me..stop me :)

Who do you think you are?

(inspired by the sharing of my National Director at our prayer meeting this Tues)

Moses was high up in his ranking in Egypt. One day, he saw an Egyptian beating a Hebrew, so deciding to do thing his way, he murdered the Egyptian. The next day when we saw two Hebrews fighting, he tried to do the right thing by telling off the one who was on the wrong. It backfired!

The man said, "Who made you ruler and judge over us? Are you thinking of killing me as you killed the Egyptian?" (Exod 2:14)

He was basically asked 'Who do you think you are?'....that kept ringing in his head after he ran off in hiding.

40 years later, when God called Moses, the first thing he said was...

But Moses said to God, "Who am I, that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?" (Exod 3:11)

check out God's answer!

And God said, "I will be with you.....(Exodus 3:12 a)

It doesn't matter who we are....It matters that God is with us and has sent us. It matters that we're His. Afterall..

for he knows how we are formed, he remembers that we are dust. (Psalm 103:14)

yet He chose us...What has God sent you to do? has He sent you to your school? your workplace? What do you have in your hands? Moses had a staff and God used that..

Where has He sent you? and what has He put in your hands?

be blessed... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yvhpQv41MU8&feature=related

Dust Mite..out you go!

Tim and I travelled to Sarawak, East Malaysia last week for five days. It was good...one group of people we trained was really encouraging. I was very nervous at first as I had to train in Chinese and they were all so much older than me. Again, I had to totally surrender to God and asked God to work through me. He did and lives and minds were changed and readjusted! I was totally overwhelmed by the priviledge and honor to be speaking into people's lives like this.

While away...Matt stayed with the babysitter/nanny here in KL. When I called her, she told me that Matt's rashes were all cleared! Praise the Lord. We were really excited..we came home..took Matt home and rashes came back! We're sure now that he's allergic to something in our home (we hope it's not us he's allergic to) ;)

Cleaning frenzy then started...I have been cleaning and cleaning to kill and remove dust mite. but really..how clean can one be?

Anyway...thought I would leave a quick update here..things are getting a little crazy..may not have too much time to update this blog now. till I blog again...auf weidersen!